Mara's Poems

Happy is the One

2009-11-29T13:36:00.000-08:00

Happy is the one whose sin
freely is forgiven
whose innocence has been declared
by the Lord of heaven,
Happy is the one.

I cried 'till I could cry no more
when my guilt in me remained;
I fell beneath the burning sun
'till forgiveness brought the rain
Happy is the one.

When I let my heart be known
and my confession made,
then I saw your mercy flow
to wash my guilt away.
Happy is the one.

People let your voice be heard
in prayer before your God:
He alone can rescue you
from trouble like a flood
Happy is the one.

Come out, come out,

2009-03-16T15:35:00.001-07:00

Come out, come out,

It’s true out here.

Release your grip on tiresome truths

Release your fears which strangle you

Shake off the wrappers, the grime, the dirt

Speak from your heart

It will never hurt.

How far can this go, this self-righteous deal

2009-03-16T15:34:00.001-07:00

How far can this go, this self-righteous deal

The days of danger lingerly stroll like a balancing act

of ice and fire, salt and steel

There’s nothing here for your soul

It spreads out before like poisonous mud

It grips you in and clogs up your blood

There will come a time when we will all have to cry

We will have to cry before we die

Some are dead already they say with a moan

Some moan already they say with the dead

I’m here now down on my hands and my knees

But they would rather be dead than turn their keys

Oh I could howl all night

I could howl at the moon, at the stars and sky

I could howl with you

I could howl into the air

My howling would find no reward

except myself feeling sad

I shall cry but my tears can not be seen

I shall sing but my voice will not be heard

This is a world of iron and steel

This is a world where death is the only word

I am free, so free, yet I still slightly fear.

2009-03-16T15:33:00.002-07:00

I am free, so free, yet I still slightly fear.

I can walk this land and yet I don’t see you.

All is so clear and shameless out there,

But here with you it is stained and bitter

Filled with your fear and filled with your want

You don’t see me but you think you do

I know so, you look away with self reassurance

It’s not me you see, you see a face

The one you used to know

How can I be here when I’m not?

I am up there in the stars with the love

And the care of His Hand

This place betrays me

It leaves me dying

I die so badly, I cry free my chains

My chains crash and crash and crash on the floor

And there I float shining pure

I’m free again with my enormously quiet heart

So open to your scathing tongue

I’m free, I’m free, I’m free, yet I

Slightly, ever so slightly fear

How can I go on?

I am a bell full of secrets

2009-03-16T15:33:00.001-07:00

I am a bell full of secrets

I am a sea full of charm

I am the grass so long and caring

I am the river so smooth and daring

I am the streams so shiny and clean

I am the bubbles so fluffy and meek

I am the air so clear and sweet

I am the rocks so great and awesome

I am the soil so bright and burning

Quick, I am off into the night to tell of my tale.

I am half spirit, half woman

2009-03-16T15:32:00.001-07:00

I am half spirit, half woman

I float each hour with miraculous movement

I display twirls with my arms

I flick off air with my lashes

I taste the damp cold breath

I sit open-eyed at the balmy stone air

The light bulb’s glare and the glows which abound.

I sit here like a boulder.

I am pursed up tight.

I can unwind and gush like a river

My limbs can fall like branches through the air

I feel them not

They hang like feathers

Am I alive?

My mouth open wide

My fingers are long, they hold the pen

The pen which writes

Who is writing?

Is this me?

I know not

I am half spirit, half woman.

I see the dots, the splashes, the splots.

I see everything out there.

It all seems to stare and bow down like bells of steel and cold stone and rocking branches, brick and gold.

I see it all.

It rises and rises.

The sky is velvet with a hollow voice

The hollow voice smiles

The voice reaches out

It says fear not

It says, stay true

Follow me and you will make it through

I am half spirit, half woman

If I love I will love all the way through you.

I have finally climbed and climbed

2009-03-16T15:31:00.001-07:00

I have finally climbed and climbed,

I have finally dragged myself up,

I have contorted and twisted and squirmed myself free

I have pushed and thumped and wrenched at my cage

I have kicked and shoved the gates open wide

I have shaken every fear inside

I have rattled and rocked my sides down

I have leapt myself out of my skin

At last I see the deadly sin.

God has set me free.

I sit here surrounded by blood and bone

2009-03-16T15:29:00.001-07:00

I sit here surrounded by blood and bone

Myself stares out dumbfounded

Straight ahead the carnations sway and

Bow their heads with steady charm

All saying hello and yes, we know

We are each of God’s great secret

The beauty in the elegant leaves

Which stride upwards leaves me crying joy

The only pain I feel is of those not like me.

They hurt me with their words

I shrivel and die like a crying babe

My mouth out-stretched and set wide

And through the pitch of moaning wail

I feel a beam of calm and quiet

All will be alright again

The Hand of He is on my brow

How can I fall? Go on be strong

I can not go on down this road

And yet I must , I can’t turn back

How can I face the daily toil, the blackened face,

The cruel, so cruel heart, the angry lies,

The expecting faces and hungry, grabbing fingers

Stretching out to me?

I am alone

I am vulnerable and quite clean

I can not bare witness to this ugly smog

It makes me coil up and die

I die so badly I make myself pure again

I sit here surrounded by blood and bone

I can not get out, yet I yearn to

I am still

I am empty

I can be nothing

Why must I see your pride and self importance?

Why must I see your ugly side?

How can I be here when I want to be there?

Yet somehow this must be fair.

It seemed so strange in here

2009-03-16T15:28:00.001-07:00

It seemed so strange in here.

At first it seemed so strange in here

I feel the smile of a thousand eyes

Never alone for voices surround

Which beckon and call and sing to me true

They sing the whisperings in the air, and of the glassy hue

My hands can lie like paperweights on strong stead ground they grow and throb with pulsating life and time

which allows them to spread and rise so big

The perfect skin so miraculously fine

Let them gently take all that’s good and try to leave the past behind.

My bliss is my heaven

2009-03-16T15:27:00.001-07:00

My bliss is my heaven

I can go there anytime

I just sail out and see my glory

My path unfolds

It shines forth all sorts of treasure.

Stop Time

2009-03-16T15:26:00.000-07:00

Stop time

Please, before you all die.

The clocks are ticking away

Your life dies before you

Your egg-timers are set

They are pouring now

Slowly

Surely

Watch yourself go

Go on

It is time to rise

Come from that mist that strangles your eyes

Your eyes, poor eyes

Poor, poor, poor, eyes, oh so poor eyes

Your eyes are slaves to your body and mind

Give back your eyes

Go, save them

Put them right back where they belong

They won’t hurt you

Go on, step from outside your eyes

Climb through your lashes

Pull yourself through each lid wide

Stretch them right back and out you must ride

Come on, come out from behind those sad eyes.

Peel back the tide

Open forth the skies

Let in the moon, the stars, the frost

Let in the night with its colossal head

Feel its mammoth arms folding around

Feel the warm breath from each star

Feel the dance, the joy and the stirring

See the face of the wondrous one calling.

My Light Burns Pure Like a Torch

2009-03-16T15:19:00.001-07:00

My flesh may decay but my light burns pure like a torch

My hair may turn grey but my light is like a flame

My feet may slip but my eyes burn so bright they alight

My soul is as young as the sun

My flame as clear as the moon

Let me burn

Let me burn unto You

Let You consume my flame

Every last drop You must take

Take me please

Hurry

Take me

I’m all aglow and there’s no other place I must go.

The Sound of Silence is Food for my Ears

2009-03-16T15:18:00.001-07:00

The sound of silence is food for my ears

The sound of silence crashes my ear

I found me in the solid air

All that glitters before my eye like

Stardust always passing me by

Waving, dancing, motioning on

My giant hands perfect my art

My giant hands work day by day

Guiding paint on paint and brush

From the deep down delving of my heart

To the cottony canvas fresh like snow

Which stands before waiting to know

What timeless piece I shall paint

What thickness, thinness, I shall stake

What brush, what knife, what finger I use

What sort of mood will I infuse

The wings cut patterns in the air

2009-03-16T15:16:00.001-07:00

The wings cut patterns in the air

The branches seize time to still

All will be peace when you see your own good will.

Come with me

I’ll lead you through the doorway of time.

I’ll lead you on to where you could never see before

Please, oh please

Come with me

When the last kiss is plucked from my heart

2009-03-16T15:15:00.001-07:00

When the last kiss is plucked from my heart

I tremble graciously like a vine and upward

Through my trembling I graciously shine

To the song of a higher verse

My heart is a molten pot of poetry

You stir and you stir till

The ripples reach the lower depths

Like a pebble thrown to sea

I leash myself into my fathom depths

Where darkness sings with birds

And there I kneel before you.

I see my feathers, spring and joy.

All these feathers and all these birds and this unfilling cupful of joy melodise with crashes unto the waves

With wind song on the mountain

The keys of raindrops on the lake

And the colours inside the fountain

I find myself like a burning torch like pool of nothing

Like a longing, flowing, gurgling brook

Like a deep, cool river running.

My riverbed is firm and true

My waters long to rise

To rise and rise till they are rainbows in the skies.

Once they rise, they rise so high

I’m left up in the skies

But once again you may stir

I shall reach my fathom bottom

And there I stand under my rain

And under my shining song, and thunder clashing.

You are not true

2009-03-16T15:14:00.001-07:00

You are not true

It is your false thought

It conditions you

Behold, awake

It is a new day

Wipe the embedded crust of deceit from your eye

Clean wide your mind

Stretch towards the bird’s wing in the almighty sky

See how the trees salute you in their mysterious gathering

Beauty in every trace,

every leaf every, crackle, every pin drop

The glistening gold embedded in rock

The manifest patterns of silver and truth

Those with the heart feel the thing

Those with good heart hear the bird sing

The bird sings for those with humble heart

For those with needless prayer

For those who want no more

His song glides smoothly into the heart

And swells and grows with purity and truth there.

Cast off your fog

Lift out your self

See, behold, this wonderful sight.

Let us bow down to God

Let us see our last days through.

You See Me, You See Me Not

2009-03-16T15:13:00.001-07:00

You see me, yet see me not

I am simply not here

I stare out of myself, out of my abashed, wide, cold eyes

My eye-lids flicker, I feel their close

I live not in this world

I feel closer to the souls

The beauty of this world had slipped me by

Now it brings cold tears to my eye

The crisp air cuts me in the street

I am bound by my feet

My feet hurry but I tread faster

I almost leave them behind

What can I do?

I can do nothing

My heart has grown

My love overflows

All I can do is shed my tears

To the snails and flowers before me

The night slips into the day into the night into day

I know not of it

It all rises as one before and after

I know not of yesterday

I live now

I can only see and feel now

I remember you not

I can feel your love, only those who purely love

A false love I can see, I see it clear

It shines over at me in a spotlight near

But a pure and true love too, I see it clear

It shines over at me in a spotlight near

But a pure and true love too,

I see in great diamond shapes which dazzle and glorify my soul

and pour into myself till it is whole

and then the joy is so ecstatic

I cry and cry like a babe.

You can't run and hide now

2009-03-16T15:12:00.001-07:00

You can’t run and hide now
The door is open for you
You’ve got to go through it
You won’t come back here now
You want to move on, move on through
You are now alive
I am alive
I am here
Where do I go next?
You are here
You can’t run and hide
You are you
You are here
You have got here
Where do I go now?
Where do I go from here?
You can’t run and hide now
You’ve got so far
You are moving on and on
Where? Think?
You can’t turn around and close your eyes on the Truth
Forwards is a big step, a beautiful big step
The most beautiful big step I could ever ask for.

You must go on

2009-03-16T15:11:00.001-07:00

You must go on in this picture book scenery, stage, show
But you know you want to move on

Love is wonderful
The world is wonderful
Being is wonderful
I am going on and on and on
There is no end to my love no end
Oh, I had believed in myself so much
Oh, I had been so self righteous
Oh, I had been so undignified
Oh, I had been so poisonous.
To be a nothing is a truly beautiful thing.

I've Been Born

2009-03-16T15:10:00.001-07:00

I’ve been born, I’ve been born, oh I’ve been born.
How can I express my joy?
Oh we do so much because we want to be happy, be happy, be happy,
If you can’t be happy now
You never will be happy.
I love my Divine
I’m here
Oh I’m here
Oh I’ve always been born and I know I’m here
I’m here forever and forever
Here I am
Here I am

God Knows Our Every Thought

2009-03-16T15:09:00.001-07:00

God knows our every thought
God knows everything
God knows when you know
He comes into your heart like warm satin snow.

The Splendiferous Day

2009-03-16T15:08:00.001-07:00

The splendiferous day lies at our feet
The splendour swells and in we go.

Enchanted Boat

2009-02-27T06:15:00.000-08:00

I have longed to sail an enchanted boat
and I have longed to bring my treasure.
I have longed to leave the scream
and tether for a more gentle weather
Night after night I lay myself down,
down on my own ground.
My bed is a bed of stars and flowers,
sequins and feathers.
My gold is here across my chest,
the gold I dug up when I was sad.
It is the only gold I’ve ever had.
My gold ain’t dusty
It shines so bright
I hold it up in the dark
then I can see in the night
When I sail my enchanted boat
I want no one to mourn
My enchanted boat will be so beautiful
it will be hidden from the storm.

Listen to your silence

2009-02-27T06:14:00.001-08:00

Listen
Listen to your silence
Your silence tells you a secret.
Oh, don’t keep it, don’t keep it.
Go, tell everyone.

Your silence is like mine,
it is empty and deep
It runs into your pockets
It is there when you sleep
Bring it with you
Flaunt it around
Let it see the daylight
Why hide it from sight?
Your silence is wonderful
Your silence is true
Your silence sings
Your silence is the messenger
of many things
Send out your messages
loud and clear
Let me hear your silence
It will be there when you need it
Let me need it too
Come let me hold your silence
And you can hold mine
Together we will sail away enshrined.

The Life Rise Oozes From Every Pore

2009-02-23T10:08:00.001-08:00

The life rise oozes from every pore
Sounds bounce and fade into night air
The voice is recorded in the sky and earth
A new moment
A new thought
A new kind
A new place
A new view
A new expression
An empty place
There is no answer
There is another thinking
The quietness tells me something
There is a secret here
It is far from me
I can not reach
My action is blind-folded
I do empty-headed
Behind the empty what?
Almost unveiled but no, gone,
An empty mind again.

The Branches White Like Cobwebs

2009-02-23T10:06:00.000-08:00

The branches white like cobwebs
all clothy and moth-like,
clothed in cotton wool,
glistening and swaying in unison.
I’m drifting along like a big ship
and I don’t know where I’m going to set anchor,
I don,t know if I ever will.

I gaze into nothingness and find happiness.
The way you feel on a hilltop
where the most beautiful view
can be seen and felt all times in your mind
I’m sure if you want it so
because it is always there
changing and unchanging.

The splendiferous day lies at our feet
The splendour swells and in we go
Our duties we must do.

Following the Road to the Stars

2009-02-23T10:05:00.001-08:00

I’m following the road to the stars
That’s where I want to be
I want to live on a moonbeam
And dance the great dance

I’m so full of love
I’m afraid my heart might break

I’m free like the wind
I blow through my mind
To feel myself calm again

I want to be free from my chains
And live with my love

My only trouble is my conscience
When my conscience is clear
I can blow like the wind
And shine like the stars

Nothing is real in my world
I know the meaning of words

I can see the beauty
It shines like the sun

I can see the sorrow
It can be there in anyone
I don’t want to feel my sorrow ever again
My sorrow is mine
But it never belonged to me
I simply borrowed it

I’m following a very special pathway
I can see everything so clearly now
I’ve been released
See.
It’s easy.
It’s love.

Time Does Not Hurt Me

2009-02-23T09:59:00.000-08:00

Time does not hurt me.
Time does not make me want to rush.
Time makes me want to just sit and listen.
Listen to the Voice of Truth
The Voice of Calm.
The Voice of Wisdom.
Let me grow.
Let me honour You.
Let me tell Truth

People Talk

2009-01-01T17:24:00.001-08:00

People talk
People talk
Talk,talk, talking
What of?
I wonder
What of ?
Love ?

What is there to talk about?
It is all here.
The beauty of it.
I don’t own anything.
Everything here belongs to God.

Rise,rise
Rise from your body
Still the pain
Lay yourself in His Hands

It’s funny, I sit here with these clothes
And these possessions which surround.
Would He approve?
They belong to Him.
I thank Him for them.
Do we need to adorn ourselves so?
Would he like this?
Why,
I am here to please Him.
To see.
To see the truth.
I must remember this.
We all must see the Truth
So will righteousness be restored.
One day righteousness will be restored.
One day righteousness will be all there is.

How can I tell the world

2009-01-01T17:17:00.000-08:00

How can I tell the world
while it busies itself into the day?
The world won’t listen,
there are no delicate ears here.
The world won’t stop,
the ears are made of steel here.
There is no love here
only ears which hear a voice,
a voice of steel.
In the tumult I stand
and shield my poor delicate ears from the steel voices,
metal hands and iron words
in their world of metal tears,
tears which pour only for their lost selves.

We all move with the melody

2009-01-01T17:16:00.000-08:00

We all move with the melody
We all see the jewels
We all hear the song
We all feel the sun
The melody is cracked
The jewels are chipped
The song is scratched
And the sun shines too strong
Listen to my heartbeat
It beats for You, God.
It can only beat for You.
And it can only beat for You, God.

Come Out

2008-11-03T15:01:00.001-08:00

Come out, come out
It’s true out here.
Release your grip on tiresome truths
Release your fears which strangle you
Shake off the wrappers, the grime, the dirt
Speak from your heart
It will never hurt.

I Want to Climb

2008-11-03T14:57:00.001-08:00

I want to climb up the hill.
I want to see from the top.
I can see so far.
I can see where I put my feet.
Beyond is uncertainty but I do not fear.
There is only a fear of here.
Here there is a dreadful stagnancy
A sort of round and round in the mind.
The mind keeps being trapped.
They trap you, make you feel bad.
Make you feel you should do something
Make you feel you should be proud.
Make you feel you should play a role.
Make you feel you should be twenty feet off the ground.
They make you feel you should know the ins and outs.
They make you feel you should know all the facts.
They make you feel you should be a responsible giant.
They make you feel you should nod your head.
They make you feel you should walk side by side.
They make you feel you should speak words.
They make you feel you should protect your home.
They think you should be fancy free.
They think you should work for the good of the land.
The land was once so good.

You Pour Water on my Soul

2008-11-03T14:55:00.000-08:00

You pour water on my soul
It’s kind of an unsaid thing
You can say as much as you like
Love is not in writing or words
I’m learning it these days.
Was he like a little boy?
The way he just stood there
He was so sweet
So humble
So true, so free
Humble makes pure
Humbleness even in rejection.
No lashing back with pride or ego
Still so sweet
Humble makes pure.

Search No More

2008-11-03T14:44:00.000-08:00

Search no more
It is here
I have it in my hand
I have the key which leads me
into the promised land
It is your undoing which scarves your eyes
It is your disbelief which covers up your skies
Take off your scarves
Show me your bruised eyes.
Let me see your quiet mouth
Let me see your silent stare
Let me see your contented frame
Never say those words again
Never fill the air with such pain
Never let such beauty witness such pain
May God fill you with purity from tip to toe
and you will be strong again.

We Can All Say Things Our Own Sweet Way

2008-11-03T14:40:00.002-08:00

We can all say things our own sweet way,

Yet I am afraid all has been said.

All has been said yet people don’t hear.

They don’t hear because it frightens them so.

They lock themselves up

thinking they are righteous and free

But really they are just like you and me

I feel the voice inside my being

I feel the sadness of your tongue

I feel the wind inside my ears

I feel the ever so light touch

of your tingling ,fuzzing, satiny, smooth fleshy flesh

I feel your flesh and yet I am not sure if I feel you.

If I could be sure it was you my heart would cry joy

My heart would love you so pure and free

My heart lays all at my feet

My heart picks me up and leads me on

Leads me unto Kingdom come

Come, let me show you the way too

It is a glorious, glorious, glorious, glorious path

The sights to behold will always last

But you must cast off your chains,

You must bow down in humble praise of those things He has given.

You must look fear in the face

You must see the terror of this dying place

Let me help you

Let me try

Let us all sit down and cry

It’s there, it’s there

The beauty of it all

The voice in the sea

The floating ghost in the hall

The feathery tendrils which flow and flow

The swelling fruit in the bowl

Let us thank Him for our pleasure

Let us be proud to see His treasure.

Care I not for your treasures

2008-11-03T14:40:00.001-08:00

Care I not for your treasures

For I see greater things

I see the twinkle in the eyes of birds

and the glide of beautiful wings

This air spreads out before me

Like being on a stage

The lights shine down and awaken my mind but

Now I must perform for you, you the darkened one

You the fearful ones, the ones who spread lies

Look at me with mistrusting eyes

She speaks not

She laughs

She cries

The dance has just begun

After the Rains Have Gone

2008-11-03T14:26:00.000-08:00

After the rains have gone I feel clean again.

It is the starting of a new day .

My words have been said before I know.

It is the gift of insight